The interim my Lord, doesn't seem to end

And now my patience is wearing

Make haste and grant me Your purpose for me

Just let me do what You sent me to do

What is it that You want me to do Lord?

I hesitate to ask You because I fear that I shall not hear Your reply

But now that I've asked You, please speak with me 

For I'm lost in thought, the folds on my brain are symbolic

Of a tortuous path that keeps me away from my goal

My goal which is You and Your purpose for me

The latter I shall receive only if I loose my self in You

Only if I loose my self in You shall I find myself

The bigger plans are not mine to see

But it would help Lord, if I could see the bigger picture

The bits and pieces that are visible to me

Are like a jigsaw that I struggle to assemble

And now my rationality has yielded

Now I fail to  see even the smaller frames

For so long I have held on to so many things 

For so long I have held myself together

But now Lord, I let go, for I can hold no longer

The soul is where is the body is, for who has been able to separate

Fragrance from a flower and innocence from a child

So if my body is in this world, then how can I not be of this world

It would be easier for me to be in you and of you

Or it would be easier for me to be in the world and of the world

But I cannot be in the world and of You

When I try to, I am blanched

Your love is warm and You pour this warmth on me

But before the warmth of Your love reaches my core

The world and its distractions they pull me away

The world is so cold and so distant

This icy coldness doesn't let Your love reach me

Hence I am blanched 

Worldly excellence doesn't hold meaning any longer

But I play devil's advocate, lest it is not the wisdom but the foolishness in me that may be speaking 

So does unwillingness to sow in the fields imply sinfulness

For work is worship and so if I refuse to find joy in my work 

Then I reject You my Lord

Am I right then and more so if I say that the work that I find no joy in is not my work

For my work as I understand  it, is Your purpose for me

So are you saying, that humbly doing what doesn't bring me satisfaction, is Your purpose for me

For Your purpose for me is obedience to Your will

And Your will for me is to be even more patient than I was all this while...